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Things that I see

  By Jasleen Rana

  Copyright 2014 Jasleen Rana

 

  Never Realized It!

  on May 11, 2009

  I look back and see the days spent together,

  those memories those laughters and those little get togethers,

  was that the love or just the illusion?

  I had never realized it..!

  Nothing is left anymore

  and I am completely forlorn...

  I would be left this alone,

  I had never realized it..!

  I tried and tried as I wanted to bring everything back,

  but my efforts and attempts have lost their track.

  True love would be this hard to find...

  I had never realized it..!

  Now I sit quietly and think for a long,

  if whatsoever I have done is worth carrying along?!

  true true very true

  those who once leave

  never come back on our way through...

  everyone would just leave like that

  I had never realized it..!

  I m also now ready

  to accept the truth empty handed

  but the memories are meant to stay along

  in the rough path of life just like a melodious song..!

  The song would fade so soon

  I had never realized it..!!

  For You!

  on August 8, 2009

  Sitting in my room and thinking it all alone,

  you appeared in my thoughts as if the sun has just shone!

  you were everything i needed,

  for whom i always had pleaded,

  so what if you have changed,

  but you will be mine as far as my dreams are ranged.

  I was all lonely, sick and worried,

  and so you came from nowhere and made me rigid.

  You were standing right there, smiling yet witty,

  and it made me fill with energy and positivity.

  I still remember talking to you was my greatest of pleasure,

  which has now become a part of the memories to treasure.

  I am still waiting for my dawn to arrive,

  but i want to tell you that its you who is my "master of disguise"!

  Without you the world looks so empty and rude,

  why have you left me all shaken and alone to brood?

  I never had a chance to tell you how much i cried,

  just know that I will wait for you till the eternity comes and till the death arrives!!

  Love..

  on May 15, 2009

  No matter you love me or not,

  no matter you'll care for me in future or not,

  no matter how long we are going to stay together,

  don't know if our lives are gonna set us apart forever,

  but somewhere deep inside my heart,

  where no one else will ever be able to last,

  i would surely remember those little things done by you,

  which have always helped me in life to get through!

  Friends

  on May 12, 2009

  Dates are unimportant

  but feelings are aloud,

  how destiny brought us together

  i still can’t make out.

  The only thing to acknowledge however

  is the friendship we are carrying out...

  which is blossoming day by day

  and which is just making us happy and gay!

  The things am writing down

  might be a matter of laughter,

  but i bet these will together make

  memories to cherish ever after.

  So here am being true and straight...

  that i won’t ever let go a friend so great!

  [ I could hear those magical words, ]

  on August 8, 2009

  I could hear those magical words,

  which were not actually uttered,

  I was nothing but happy,

  then why were my all dreams shattered?

  The simple things i demanded,

  were love, trust and faith all good

  and why were these the only things

  that you never ever understood?

  Why did you break my heart,

  and then went far apart?

  Why were you always so destorted,

  and never could become a part of it?

  I wanted to be with you forever,

  as you were the only love I felt

  but why you never knew that how it could be dealt?

  You never really loved me and

  pretended to do so....

  The good times spent together

  were not at all true.....

  then why could you never tell me, the brutal truth all through?

  I was even ready to wait

  but why you never asked me to stay

  Many things were left unsaid

  but tell me once why did you never understand!

  rain...

  on April 8, 2010

 

  long awaited rain

  is knocking at our window pane

  rain brings smiles

  with bright n cheerful shine

  my heart misses a beat

  when i get rid of the heat

  i walk out in the rain

  just to get rid of my pain

  what is about it

  which makes me the craziest

  is it the rain or the feelings within

  in the rain u always see me grinning

  would i ever be able to tell

  what a wonderful cast this rain spells

  it brings in the cool breeze

  with romantic and thrilling freeze

  oh god how should i thank you

  for making this the happiest season all through

  just keep on bringing this beautiful rain

  and this would get us all the gain.

  first love....

  on March 25, 2010

  I don't know what he is trying to hide

  There must be something or else why would he feel shy

  The feeling is strange

  it’s a mixture, an amalgamation of everything.

  I can sometimes see it clearly

  through his voice through his eyes

  but I still don't want to confront it

  as it is better to stay on another side.

  At the same time am enjoying it

  I am feeling happy and glad about it.

  I don't know what is going to happen next,

  but I know the feeling is mutual and it is never going to end!

  [ I feel happy when you are around ]

  on March 25, 2010. 

  I feel happy when you are around

  but I am sad when you are gone out

  I try to find myself in your talk

  Am I really there or am just going mad

  I want to talk when you are away

  but feel dumbstruck and shy when you are there

  May be you know

  May be you don't

  Coz' the thing i am feeling is difficult to say out loud!

  Life is strange....

  on March 14, 2010

  Life is strange and weird in its own ways,

  Sometimes it takes you to a ride

  you fly high!

  And the other moment it takes you aback

  you are stabbed hard!

  Life is strange yet good in its own ways,

  Sometimes it makes me laugh

  till the time I am caught!

  And the other moment it makes me cry

  till the tears dry!

  Life is strange but difficult in its own ways,

  Sometimes you fee
l loved, cared and fine

  it takes you to the cloud nine!

  And the other moment you think if that love is incomplete

  it has vanished and now is obsolete!

  I Wish I Could....

  on March 1, 2010

  I wish i could have given it a thought...

  I wish i could have it all.

  I wish i could have convinced them..

  I wish i could stay along.

  I wish i could call them mine..

  I wish i could swing in style.

  The wishes i wished never became true.

  Longing hard for it, was all i could do!

  Is this what they call the destiny?

  But the things i wished were so very tiny.

  I wish my wishes were heard.

  I wish i had not lost it all.

  I wish i could wish more.

  I wish i could cherish it to the core.

  I wish i could have given it a thought...

  I wish i could have it all.

  Thousand Tiny Deaths Make Me Feel Alive

  on February 25, 2010

  I die daily

  i am dieing now

  i will die tomorrow

  and day after that

  but the death i would get

  at the end of my life

  would be the death

  the most painful one

  the most hurting

  and sad

  it will remind me of my bad deeds

  of the good things i have done in the past life

  of the deaths that i have lived

  and of the deaths that i have died

  those were the deaths which made me remind

  that i am still living

  and i am still alive

  so i don't want to die any other death

  i want to live for now

  live every single moment that i have got

  that God has given me

  i would live this life

  till the eternity lets me live

  and till the death arrives

  Promise

  on June 30, 2011

 

  You promised happiness

  that always grow.

  You promised morning

  with never ending glow.

  You promised goodness

  to vanish sorrow.

  You promised love

  today and tomorrow.

  You were gone

  in the paths so narrow

  You disappeared

  in the sky like a sparrow

  You were angry

  and I don't know how

  You were good

  and I see you go now.

  You made me sad

  and promises were broken

  you made me lonely

  and all so shaken.

  You have left

  with the crazy disguise.

  You are not here

  and no promise premise.

  Don't blame me.......

  on March 29, 2011

  Don't blame me for everything i do and everything you did,

  It was not intentional and can't be undone

  You stole my happiness and made me dull

  I should be the one complaining it to the full,

  For this is something which can’t be dealt.

  The emotions, love and everything seems fake,

  Only thing i can see is my life at stake

  Your talk and your actions are miles apart from one another,

  then why it’s you who always demand an explanation

  I have decided to keep a quiet this time,

  'coz the things you do are going out of my mind.

  I may be crazy and real bad to shout,

  but that’s the way I am, the way I go out.

  You should understand you are no one to spoil my life,

  I will make friends and won’t let you hover like a knife!!

  What to do...

  on March 29, 2011

  IT FEELS GOOD TO HAVE CONTROL OVER THINGS

  BUT WHEN THEY ARE OUT OF THE REACH I JUST DON'T KNOW

  WHAT TO DO!

  WHAT TO DO NOW

  AND WHERE TO GO NEXT.....

  WHEN MIND IS BLANK AND HEART GOES ON.......

  I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT TO DO

  AND WHERE TO GO NEXT.....

  SHOULD I LEAVE IT ON DESTINY

  OR SHOULD I MAKE UP MIND WHICH JUST GOES BLIND

  WHAT TO DO NOW.......

  AND WHERE TO GO NEXT.....

  WHO WILL TELL JUST BLOODY WHO WILL TELL ME, WHERE TO GO & WHAT TO DO NEXT!!!!!!

  Down the memory lane....

  on January 25, 2013

  Sometimes I wonder if you still like me,

  still remember me like the good old times.

  That ever a girl wearing same shoes as me,

  makes you wonder if I am still alive .

  Places where spent were the days and nights,

  takes you to a stroll down the memory line.

  The aroma of coffee when made afresh,

  reminds you of the dreams that we dreamt.

  The late night movies and those endless fights

  laughing aloud along the lake side.

  Do you still sleep late in the night?

  Sound and calm without an embrace tight...

  Do you get up at the earliest hour?

  to treat me the breakfast of my choice…

  Do you still have the pets you were fond of?

  Do you still know how to read my mind?

  So close and yet so far

  I realized its true when you went apart

  The sketches we made

  And the secrets we shared

  Please tell me those were not at all real!

  I see you made friends all so nice,

  but why I can still see the emptiness that resides!